My Pain!
The day slowly passed and I found myself on the phone with Peerapong. "I don’t know… I don’t know whether to tell Ploypailin or not." I said. "Why wouldn’t you?" Peerapong said. "She told me about previous experiences when her close friends had come out to her." "And?" "And she said, it made her feel awkward and stuff. And that all she wants is friendship from those guys, and she could never really look at them the same after that. She said they all stopped being friends." "So… So if you tell her… If you tell Ploypailin… You think she won’t be your friend anymore?" I paused. "Yeah. Probably. I mean, when I look at her, I don’t see a friend. I see more than that, a person who I want to spend forever with, and who I want to die with. Don’t you think she might be scared off a bit by me saying that?" "Dude, you’re making me sick with all the mushy-mushy crap. But I don’t know, I mean you’re the one who knows her personally." "Yeah I do. Maybe I shouldn’t know her, maybe it’s best if she was gone." "What do you mean?" "I mean she’s all I want! I rejected two beautiful girls in the last week - while they were talking to me, all I was thinking about was her." "Dude, you know you’re stupid right?" "Shut up, man. Can’t you see that I have no choice? I mean, her friendship means the world to me, but how am I expected to ever fall in love if she’s always on my mind? It’s either win, or survive if I tell her. But if I wait for her to possibly, eventually make a move on me, it’s win or lose." "That’s some deeps*** right there man." "Yeah well, I’m the one who needs to step in it." "So what are you going to do?" "I was hoping you’d tell me." "Why me?" "So if you tell me to tell her then I can blame it on someone when she rejects me." "Heh heh… That’s what friends are for… I guess… Man, just suck it up and tell her, I can’t stand seeing you like this." A few minutes pass as I stare a hole through the setting sun. "Alright, I’ll tell her… Tomorrow, before class. She’s always the first one there." "And you’ll be the second? Wow, new record for you." "Heh." "Man, I’m here for you, alright? No matter what happens tomorrow." "Thanks man." With the knowledge that I have Peerapong as a safety cushion if I fail, I can start tomorrow with so much confidence. I make it through the night, not a second spent with my eyes closed.
Once I approach the classroom I stare at her through the door window, the only barrier between myself and relief, she looks up and waves. "Oh god she’s so beautiful." Did I just say that out loud?! She obviously saw my lips moving because of the curious expression on her face. I slip inside and close the door. I slightly bang my head on the glass and breathe a sigh in hopes to terminate the vast nervousness in my veins from what I am about to do. "Hey you." She speaks with words so soft. Silently approaching her, I take another breath and look into her eyes, standing my ground in between her and her escape. "I…I can’t…" "Can’t what?" She says. "I’m sorry." "Wh – what?" "I’m sorry… If you misinterpreted us… What we have… Our friendship." She looks me in the eye with a curious, confused expression. "I just… I can’t… stop thinking about you. You’re in my mind all day and I love it and I hate it and… and I just… needed you to know, I guess." Something told me the moment was over, but I knew better… Still with a confused expression, she forms her lips in response. "Don’t speak." I said. "Just – I can’t… I can’t do anything! I can’t sleep, I can’t concentrate, I can’t even talk straight… It’s painful, knowing that you don’t know. You’re just this big… thing… growing and growing by day, taking over my mind and I just can’t do anything… about it. I just… I just needed to tell you, so maybe it could… maybe it could stop." It’s amazing, I was never able to look at any girl straight in the eyes for an entire conversation. But emptying my deepest thoughts to her was so much easier as I was drowning myself in her eyes. I looked down, as staring to the ground was a safe haven for me my entire life. But I’m not playing it safe anymore, my father once told me that courage is connected to the eyes, as your eyes fall to the ground, your courage falls with it. Not about to lose my courage, I slowly raise my eyes back to hers. And after noticing her knees frozen solid, I continue: "I look at some other girl, a girl who’s beautiful and - and nice and is everything any guy would be looking for and I don’t feel a thing for her. All I can think about is you. I’m just… in love… with you. And I know you don’t feel the same way but I just… It just needed to get out." After a pause in time she moves toward the exit, but my instinct takes over and I grab her shoulders with my palms. "Wha – What are you doing? Let go, let… Go… LET GO!" She screams with tears as I wrap my arms around her backside and bring my lips to her ear. "Listen to me, please! If you… If you feel about me like I feel about you, you have to let me know! You have to. Because what I’m feeling for you doesn’t deserve to be wasted on a missed opportunity." After ten seconds of silence, she pushes through my heart and goes for the doorknob as my life fills with silence. Silence. Nothing. No more pain… Not now. But she’s still here, I can feel her, but I can’t look back. I’m telling myself I can’t look back. It’s her choice. After seconds that seem like days pass me by, I hear a distant movement. She sprints towards me and turns me around with such ferocity I could never see it coming. Her mouth meets with mine and suddenly I feel the grinding of our teeth in the most sensitive nerves of my body. She grabs my collar and pulls me even closer to the point where I can’t breathe. We finally depart from one another by inches, which seem like miles after that sensational experience. Still speechless, she looks into my eyes and shakes her head, turns, and runs out the door. Any word I could have used to stop her escaped me. I don’t know what that was. I don’t know what to feel. I blink and I find myself outside the class, my legs in full motion in pursuit of the soul I just connected with. By this time the other students are on their way up to the door, with the teacher following close behind them. My body still semi-numb, I clip a student as I leap down the stairs, I hear a crash but I don’t look back. I instinctively mumble half of an apology but there’s no way he heard me. "Ploypailin Ploypailin Ploypailin!!" She goes from a fast walk to a mild sprint, but soon she caves in as I continue yelling her name. I see her standing there, swaying from side to side and stumbling like a drunk. She falls to the ground in slow motion, I reach out but my nails barely graze the tips of her dark brown hair as she hits the pavement. I turn her over and notice her eyes closed, I – I don’t know what to do. What do I do? Tell me. I scream. "HELP!! ME!!" I scream: "SOMEBODY!!" I look at her closed eyes, I scream louder: "HELP!!" I look at her pretty face, I scream louder: "ANYBODY!! AHHHH!!!" I hear footsteps. The rest of the day is a blur. All I remember are the sirens wailing in the distance, and yet, silence is all I hear.
The following two days of class meant nothing to me, I was called upon several times and ignored everything the teacher said or asked. My eyes were glued on her empty desk three feet in front of me, wishing I could smell the delicious scent of her hair, like I had done every day previous to this one. I was in love. I was in love with a leukemia victim who has no feelings whatsoever to me. Why? Why am I tortured like this? And why am I so selfish to think of myself right now when she’s the sick one? I should bring her flowers. I should bring her something. I should see her. No. I shouldn’t. I can’t get attached. I can’t get attached. I can’t. I can’t. Damn. I already am, aren’t I? "Mom! I’m going out! I’ll be back late!" I yelled. No response. Figures. I took the roses off my dresser and leaped down the stairs, and opened the door. There she was. Soaked, smiling, her fist in the air ready to knock on the door I just opened. "Ploypailin.." I nearly fainted. I dropped the roses, I didn’t even notice. I reached out my empty hand, positioned as if I was holding something, right into her face. "These… These are for you." "Aww.." She laughed and picked the flowers up from the ground. "Thank you!" "Yeah.. Yeah no problem." She smiled again. Then she threw the flowers over her head, pulled my shirt and kissed me, exactly like she had done before. Surprised and confused, I pulled away. "But – but I thought…" "I’m in love with you!" She said, loud enough the neighbors peeked out the window. "I just – I just couldn’t tell you before. I couldn’t stand for you to see me like I am. If the worst happens, I can’t stand you being miserable. But you were right… You were right… and what I’m feeling for you doesn’t deserve to be wasted on a missed opportunity. The truth is, I’ve loved you ever since you spoke to me. I’m sorry I didn’t tell you at the hospital… I’m sorry… I just couldn’t. I couldn’t put you through it, and I shouldn’t put you through it. But I’m in love with you. And I just needed you to know -." I lunged at her and embraced her lips with mine before she could finish talking. Our mouths were glued together as we walked towards my bedroom. Leaving a trail of clothes behind the sounds of our footsteps on the creaking, wooden floor.
วันจันทร์ที่ 17 กันยายน พ.ศ. 2550
Her Pain is My Pain!
My Pain!
The day slowly passed and I found myself on the phone with Peerapong. "I don’t know… I don’t know whether to tell Ploypailin or not." I said. "Why wouldn’t you?" Peerapong said. "She told me about previous experiences when her close friends had come out to her." "And?" "And she said, it made her feel awkward and stuff. And that all she wants is friendship from those guys, and she could never really look at them the same after that. She said they all stopped being friends." "So… So if you tell her… If you tell Ploypailin… You think she won’t be your friend anymore?" I paused. "Yeah. Probably. I mean, when I look at her, I don’t see a friend. I see more than that, a person who I want to spend forever with, and who I want to die with. Don’t you think she might be scared off a bit by me saying that?" "Dude, you’re making me sick with all the mushy-mushy crap. But I don’t know, I mean you’re the one who knows her personally." "Yeah I do. Maybe I shouldn’t know her, maybe it’s best if she was gone." "What do you mean?" "I mean she’s all I want! I rejected two beautiful girls in the last week - while they were talking to me, all I was thinking about was her." "Dude, you know you’re stupid right?" "Shut up, man. Can’t you see that I have no choice? I mean, her friendship means the world to me, but how am I expected to ever fall in love if she’s always on my mind? It’s either win, or survive if I tell her. But if I wait for her to possibly, eventually make a move on me, it’s win or lose." "That’s some deeps*** right there man." "Yeah well, I’m the one who needs to step in it." "So what are you going to do?" "I was hoping you’d tell me." "Why me?" "So if you tell me to tell her then I can blame it on someone when she rejects me." "Heh heh… That’s what friends are for… I guess… Man, just suck it up and tell her, I can’t stand seeing you like this." A few minutes pass as I stare a hole through the setting sun. "Alright, I’ll tell her… Tomorrow, before class. She’s always the first one there." "And you’ll be the second? Wow, new record for you." "Heh." "Man, I’m here for you, alright? No matter what happens tomorrow." "Thanks man." With the knowledge that I have Peerapong as a safety cushion if I fail, I can start tomorrow with so much confidence. I make it through the night, not a second spent with my eyes closed.
Once I approach the classroom I stare at her through the door window, the only barrier between myself and relief, she looks up and waves. "Oh god she’s so beautiful." Did I just say that out loud?! She obviously saw my lips moving because of the curious expression on her face. I slip inside and close the door. I slightly bang my head on the glass and breathe a sigh in hopes to terminate the vast nervousness in my veins from what I am about to do. "Hey you." She speaks with words so soft. Silently approaching her, I take another breath and look into her eyes, standing my ground in between her and her escape. "I…I can’t…" "Can’t what?" She says. "I’m sorry." "Wh – what?" "I’m sorry… If you misinterpreted us… What we have… Our friendship." She looks me in the eye with a curious, confused expression. "I just… I can’t… stop thinking about you. You’re in my mind all day and I love it and I hate it and… and I just… needed you to know, I guess." Something told me the moment was over, but I knew better… Still with a confused expression, she forms her lips in response. "Don’t speak." I said. "Just – I can’t… I can’t do anything! I can’t sleep, I can’t concentrate, I can’t even talk straight… It’s painful, knowing that you don’t know. You’re just this big… thing… growing and growing by day, taking over my mind and I just can’t do anything… about it. I just… I just needed to tell you, so maybe it could… maybe it could stop." It’s amazing, I was never able to look at any girl straight in the eyes for an entire conversation. But emptying my deepest thoughts to her was so much easier as I was drowning myself in her eyes. I looked down, as staring to the ground was a safe haven for me my entire life. But I’m not playing it safe anymore, my father once told me that courage is connected to the eyes, as your eyes fall to the ground, your courage falls with it. Not about to lose my courage, I slowly raise my eyes back to hers. And after noticing her knees frozen solid, I continue: "I look at some other girl, a girl who’s beautiful and - and nice and is everything any guy would be looking for and I don’t feel a thing for her. All I can think about is you. I’m just… in love… with you. And I know you don’t feel the same way but I just… It just needed to get out." After a pause in time she moves toward the exit, but my instinct takes over and I grab her shoulders with my palms. "Wha – What are you doing? Let go, let… Go… LET GO!" She screams with tears as I wrap my arms around her backside and bring my lips to her ear. "Listen to me, please! If you… If you feel about me like I feel about you, you have to let me know! You have to. Because what I’m feeling for you doesn’t deserve to be wasted on a missed opportunity." After ten seconds of silence, she pushes through my heart and goes for the doorknob as my life fills with silence. Silence. Nothing. No more pain… Not now. But she’s still here, I can feel her, but I can’t look back. I’m telling myself I can’t look back. It’s her choice. After seconds that seem like days pass me by, I hear a distant movement. She sprints towards me and turns me around with such ferocity I could never see it coming. Her mouth meets with mine and suddenly I feel the grinding of our teeth in the most sensitive nerves of my body. She grabs my collar and pulls me even closer to the point where I can’t breathe. We finally depart from one another by inches, which seem like miles after that sensational experience. Still speechless, she looks into my eyes and shakes her head, turns, and runs out the door. Any word I could have used to stop her escaped me. I don’t know what that was. I don’t know what to feel. I blink and I find myself outside the class, my legs in full motion in pursuit of the soul I just connected with. By this time the other students are on their way up to the door, with the teacher following close behind them. My body still semi-numb, I clip a student as I leap down the stairs, I hear a crash but I don’t look back. I instinctively mumble half of an apology but there’s no way he heard me. "Ploypailin Ploypailin Ploypailin!!" She goes from a fast walk to a mild sprint, but soon she caves in as I continue yelling her name. I see her standing there, swaying from side to side and stumbling like a drunk. She falls to the ground in slow motion, I reach out but my nails barely graze the tips of her dark brown hair as she hits the pavement. I turn her over and notice her eyes closed, I – I don’t know what to do. What do I do? Tell me. I scream. "HELP!! ME!!" I scream: "SOMEBODY!!" I look at her closed eyes, I scream louder: "HELP!!" I look at her pretty face, I scream louder: "ANYBODY!! AHHHH!!!" I hear footsteps. The rest of the day is a blur. All I remember are the sirens wailing in the distance, and yet, silence is all I hear.
The following two days of class meant nothing to me, I was called upon several times and ignored everything the teacher said or asked. My eyes were glued on her empty desk three feet in front of me, wishing I could smell the delicious scent of her hair, like I had done every day previous to this one. I was in love. I was in love with a leukemia victim who has no feelings whatsoever to me. Why? Why am I tortured like this? And why am I so selfish to think of myself right now when she’s the sick one? I should bring her flowers. I should bring her something. I should see her. No. I shouldn’t. I can’t get attached. I can’t get attached. I can’t. I can’t. Damn. I already am, aren’t I? "Mom! I’m going out! I’ll be back late!" I yelled. No response. Figures. I took the roses off my dresser and leaped down the stairs, and opened the door. There she was. Soaked, smiling, her fist in the air ready to knock on the door I just opened. "Ploypailin.." I nearly fainted. I dropped the roses, I didn’t even notice. I reached out my empty hand, positioned as if I was holding something, right into her face. "These… These are for you." "Aww.." She laughed and picked the flowers up from the ground. "Thank you!" "Yeah.. Yeah no problem." She smiled again. Then she threw the flowers over her head, pulled my shirt and kissed me, exactly like she had done before. Surprised and confused, I pulled away. "But – but I thought…" "I’m in love with you!" She said, loud enough the neighbors peeked out the window. "I just – I just couldn’t tell you before. I couldn’t stand for you to see me like I am. If the worst happens, I can’t stand you being miserable. But you were right… You were right… and what I’m feeling for you doesn’t deserve to be wasted on a missed opportunity. The truth is, I’ve loved you ever since you spoke to me. I’m sorry I didn’t tell you at the hospital… I’m sorry… I just couldn’t. I couldn’t put you through it, and I shouldn’t put you through it. But I’m in love with you. And I just needed you to know -." I lunged at her and embraced her lips with mine before she could finish talking. Our mouths were glued together as we walked towards my bedroom. Leaving a trail of clothes behind the sounds of our footsteps on the creaking, wooden floor.
The day slowly passed and I found myself on the phone with Peerapong. "I don’t know… I don’t know whether to tell Ploypailin or not." I said. "Why wouldn’t you?" Peerapong said. "She told me about previous experiences when her close friends had come out to her." "And?" "And she said, it made her feel awkward and stuff. And that all she wants is friendship from those guys, and she could never really look at them the same after that. She said they all stopped being friends." "So… So if you tell her… If you tell Ploypailin… You think she won’t be your friend anymore?" I paused. "Yeah. Probably. I mean, when I look at her, I don’t see a friend. I see more than that, a person who I want to spend forever with, and who I want to die with. Don’t you think she might be scared off a bit by me saying that?" "Dude, you’re making me sick with all the mushy-mushy crap. But I don’t know, I mean you’re the one who knows her personally." "Yeah I do. Maybe I shouldn’t know her, maybe it’s best if she was gone." "What do you mean?" "I mean she’s all I want! I rejected two beautiful girls in the last week - while they were talking to me, all I was thinking about was her." "Dude, you know you’re stupid right?" "Shut up, man. Can’t you see that I have no choice? I mean, her friendship means the world to me, but how am I expected to ever fall in love if she’s always on my mind? It’s either win, or survive if I tell her. But if I wait for her to possibly, eventually make a move on me, it’s win or lose." "That’s some deeps*** right there man." "Yeah well, I’m the one who needs to step in it." "So what are you going to do?" "I was hoping you’d tell me." "Why me?" "So if you tell me to tell her then I can blame it on someone when she rejects me." "Heh heh… That’s what friends are for… I guess… Man, just suck it up and tell her, I can’t stand seeing you like this." A few minutes pass as I stare a hole through the setting sun. "Alright, I’ll tell her… Tomorrow, before class. She’s always the first one there." "And you’ll be the second? Wow, new record for you." "Heh." "Man, I’m here for you, alright? No matter what happens tomorrow." "Thanks man." With the knowledge that I have Peerapong as a safety cushion if I fail, I can start tomorrow with so much confidence. I make it through the night, not a second spent with my eyes closed.
Once I approach the classroom I stare at her through the door window, the only barrier between myself and relief, she looks up and waves. "Oh god she’s so beautiful." Did I just say that out loud?! She obviously saw my lips moving because of the curious expression on her face. I slip inside and close the door. I slightly bang my head on the glass and breathe a sigh in hopes to terminate the vast nervousness in my veins from what I am about to do. "Hey you." She speaks with words so soft. Silently approaching her, I take another breath and look into her eyes, standing my ground in between her and her escape. "I…I can’t…" "Can’t what?" She says. "I’m sorry." "Wh – what?" "I’m sorry… If you misinterpreted us… What we have… Our friendship." She looks me in the eye with a curious, confused expression. "I just… I can’t… stop thinking about you. You’re in my mind all day and I love it and I hate it and… and I just… needed you to know, I guess." Something told me the moment was over, but I knew better… Still with a confused expression, she forms her lips in response. "Don’t speak." I said. "Just – I can’t… I can’t do anything! I can’t sleep, I can’t concentrate, I can’t even talk straight… It’s painful, knowing that you don’t know. You’re just this big… thing… growing and growing by day, taking over my mind and I just can’t do anything… about it. I just… I just needed to tell you, so maybe it could… maybe it could stop." It’s amazing, I was never able to look at any girl straight in the eyes for an entire conversation. But emptying my deepest thoughts to her was so much easier as I was drowning myself in her eyes. I looked down, as staring to the ground was a safe haven for me my entire life. But I’m not playing it safe anymore, my father once told me that courage is connected to the eyes, as your eyes fall to the ground, your courage falls with it. Not about to lose my courage, I slowly raise my eyes back to hers. And after noticing her knees frozen solid, I continue: "I look at some other girl, a girl who’s beautiful and - and nice and is everything any guy would be looking for and I don’t feel a thing for her. All I can think about is you. I’m just… in love… with you. And I know you don’t feel the same way but I just… It just needed to get out." After a pause in time she moves toward the exit, but my instinct takes over and I grab her shoulders with my palms. "Wha – What are you doing? Let go, let… Go… LET GO!" She screams with tears as I wrap my arms around her backside and bring my lips to her ear. "Listen to me, please! If you… If you feel about me like I feel about you, you have to let me know! You have to. Because what I’m feeling for you doesn’t deserve to be wasted on a missed opportunity." After ten seconds of silence, she pushes through my heart and goes for the doorknob as my life fills with silence. Silence. Nothing. No more pain… Not now. But she’s still here, I can feel her, but I can’t look back. I’m telling myself I can’t look back. It’s her choice. After seconds that seem like days pass me by, I hear a distant movement. She sprints towards me and turns me around with such ferocity I could never see it coming. Her mouth meets with mine and suddenly I feel the grinding of our teeth in the most sensitive nerves of my body. She grabs my collar and pulls me even closer to the point where I can’t breathe. We finally depart from one another by inches, which seem like miles after that sensational experience. Still speechless, she looks into my eyes and shakes her head, turns, and runs out the door. Any word I could have used to stop her escaped me. I don’t know what that was. I don’t know what to feel. I blink and I find myself outside the class, my legs in full motion in pursuit of the soul I just connected with. By this time the other students are on their way up to the door, with the teacher following close behind them. My body still semi-numb, I clip a student as I leap down the stairs, I hear a crash but I don’t look back. I instinctively mumble half of an apology but there’s no way he heard me. "Ploypailin Ploypailin Ploypailin!!" She goes from a fast walk to a mild sprint, but soon she caves in as I continue yelling her name. I see her standing there, swaying from side to side and stumbling like a drunk. She falls to the ground in slow motion, I reach out but my nails barely graze the tips of her dark brown hair as she hits the pavement. I turn her over and notice her eyes closed, I – I don’t know what to do. What do I do? Tell me. I scream. "HELP!! ME!!" I scream: "SOMEBODY!!" I look at her closed eyes, I scream louder: "HELP!!" I look at her pretty face, I scream louder: "ANYBODY!! AHHHH!!!" I hear footsteps. The rest of the day is a blur. All I remember are the sirens wailing in the distance, and yet, silence is all I hear.
The following two days of class meant nothing to me, I was called upon several times and ignored everything the teacher said or asked. My eyes were glued on her empty desk three feet in front of me, wishing I could smell the delicious scent of her hair, like I had done every day previous to this one. I was in love. I was in love with a leukemia victim who has no feelings whatsoever to me. Why? Why am I tortured like this? And why am I so selfish to think of myself right now when she’s the sick one? I should bring her flowers. I should bring her something. I should see her. No. I shouldn’t. I can’t get attached. I can’t get attached. I can’t. I can’t. Damn. I already am, aren’t I? "Mom! I’m going out! I’ll be back late!" I yelled. No response. Figures. I took the roses off my dresser and leaped down the stairs, and opened the door. There she was. Soaked, smiling, her fist in the air ready to knock on the door I just opened. "Ploypailin.." I nearly fainted. I dropped the roses, I didn’t even notice. I reached out my empty hand, positioned as if I was holding something, right into her face. "These… These are for you." "Aww.." She laughed and picked the flowers up from the ground. "Thank you!" "Yeah.. Yeah no problem." She smiled again. Then she threw the flowers over her head, pulled my shirt and kissed me, exactly like she had done before. Surprised and confused, I pulled away. "But – but I thought…" "I’m in love with you!" She said, loud enough the neighbors peeked out the window. "I just – I just couldn’t tell you before. I couldn’t stand for you to see me like I am. If the worst happens, I can’t stand you being miserable. But you were right… You were right… and what I’m feeling for you doesn’t deserve to be wasted on a missed opportunity. The truth is, I’ve loved you ever since you spoke to me. I’m sorry I didn’t tell you at the hospital… I’m sorry… I just couldn’t. I couldn’t put you through it, and I shouldn’t put you through it. But I’m in love with you. And I just needed you to know -." I lunged at her and embraced her lips with mine before she could finish talking. Our mouths were glued together as we walked towards my bedroom. Leaving a trail of clothes behind the sounds of our footsteps on the creaking, wooden floor.
Her Pain is My Pain!
My Pain!
The day slowly passed and I found myself on the phone with Peerapong. "I don’t know… I don’t know whether to tell Ploypailin or not." I said. "Why wouldn’t you?" Peerapong said. "She told me about previous experiences when her close friends had come out to her." "And?" "And she said, it made her feel awkward and stuff. And that all she wants is friendship from those guys, and she could never really look at them the same after that. She said they all stopped being friends." "So… So if you tell her… If you tell Ploypailin… You think she won’t be your friend anymore?" I paused. "Yeah. Probably. I mean, when I look at her, I don’t see a friend. I see more than that, a person who I want to spend forever with, and who I want to die with. Don’t you think she might be scared off a bit by me saying that?" "Dude, you’re making me sick with all the mushy-mushy crap. But I don’t know, I mean you’re the one who knows her personally." "Yeah I do. Maybe I shouldn’t know her, maybe it’s best if she was gone." "What do you mean?" "I mean she’s all I want! I rejected two beautiful girls in the last week - while they were talking to me, all I was thinking about was her." "Dude, you know you’re stupid right?" "Shut up, man. Can’t you see that I have no choice? I mean, her friendship means the world to me, but how am I expected to ever fall in love if she’s always on my mind? It’s either win, or survive if I tell her. But if I wait for her to possibly, eventually make a move on me, it’s win or lose." "That’s some deeps*** right there man." "Yeah well, I’m the one who needs to step in it." "So what are you going to do?" "I was hoping you’d tell me." "Why me?" "So if you tell me to tell her then I can blame it on someone when she rejects me." "Heh heh… That’s what friends are for… I guess… Man, just suck it up and tell her, I can’t stand seeing you like this." A few minutes pass as I stare a hole through the setting sun. "Alright, I’ll tell her… Tomorrow, before class. She’s always the first one there." "And you’ll be the second? Wow, new record for you." "Heh." "Man, I’m here for you, alright? No matter what happens tomorrow." "Thanks man." With the knowledge that I have Peerapong as a safety cushion if I fail, I can start tomorrow with so much confidence. I make it through the night, not a second spent with my eyes closed.
Once I approach the classroom I stare at her through the door window, the only barrier between myself and relief, she looks up and waves. "Oh god she’s so beautiful." Did I just say that out loud?! She obviously saw my lips moving because of the curious expression on her face. I slip inside and close the door. I slightly bang my head on the glass and breathe a sigh in hopes to terminate the vast nervousness in my veins from what I am about to do. "Hey you." She speaks with words so soft. Silently approaching her, I take another breath and look into her eyes, standing my ground in between her and her escape. "I…I can’t…" "Can’t what?" She says. "I’m sorry." "Wh – what?" "I’m sorry… If you misinterpreted us… What we have… Our friendship." She looks me in the eye with a curious, confused expression. "I just… I can’t… stop thinking about you. You’re in my mind all day and I love it and I hate it and… and I just… needed you to know, I guess." Something told me the moment was over, but I knew better… Still with a confused expression, she forms her lips in response. "Don’t speak." I said. "Just – I can’t… I can’t do anything! I can’t sleep, I can’t concentrate, I can’t even talk straight… It’s painful, knowing that you don’t know. You’re just this big… thing… growing and growing by day, taking over my mind and I just can’t do anything… about it. I just… I just needed to tell you, so maybe it could… maybe it could stop." It’s amazing, I was never able to look at any girl straight in the eyes for an entire conversation. But emptying my deepest thoughts to her was so much easier as I was drowning myself in her eyes. I looked down, as staring to the ground was a safe haven for me my entire life. But I’m not playing it safe anymore, my father once told me that courage is connected to the eyes, as your eyes fall to the ground, your courage falls with it. Not about to lose my courage, I slowly raise my eyes back to hers. And after noticing her knees frozen solid, I continue: "I look at some other girl, a girl who’s beautiful and - and nice and is everything any guy would be looking for and I don’t feel a thing for her. All I can think about is you. I’m just… in love… with you. And I know you don’t feel the same way but I just… It just needed to get out." After a pause in time she moves toward the exit, but my instinct takes over and I grab her shoulders with my palms. "Wha – What are you doing? Let go, let… Go… LET GO!" She screams with tears as I wrap my arms around her backside and bring my lips to her ear. "Listen to me, please! If you… If you feel about me like I feel about you, you have to let me know! You have to. Because what I’m feeling for you doesn’t deserve to be wasted on a missed opportunity." After ten seconds of silence, she pushes through my heart and goes for the doorknob as my life fills with silence. Silence. Nothing. No more pain… Not now. But she’s still here, I can feel her, but I can’t look back. I’m telling myself I can’t look back. It’s her choice. After seconds that seem like days pass me by, I hear a distant movement. She sprints towards me and turns me around with such ferocity I could never see it coming. Her mouth meets with mine and suddenly I feel the grinding of our teeth in the most sensitive nerves of my body. She grabs my collar and pulls me even closer to the point where I can’t breathe. We finally depart from one another by inches, which seem like miles after that sensational experience. Still speechless, she looks into my eyes and shakes her head, turns, and runs out the door. Any word I could have used to stop her escaped me. I don’t know what that was. I don’t know what to feel. I blink and I find myself outside the class, my legs in full motion in pursuit of the soul I just connected with. By this time the other students are on their way up to the door, with the teacher following close behind them. My body still semi-numb, I clip a student as I leap down the stairs, I hear a crash but I don’t look back. I instinctively mumble half of an apology but there’s no way he heard me. "Ploypailin Ploypailin Ploypailin!!" She goes from a fast walk to a mild sprint, but soon she caves in as I continue yelling her name. I see her standing there, swaying from side to side and stumbling like a drunk. She falls to the ground in slow motion, I reach out but my nails barely graze the tips of her dark brown hair as she hits the pavement. I turn her over and notice her eyes closed, I – I don’t know what to do. What do I do? Tell me. I scream. "HELP!! ME!!" I scream: "SOMEBODY!!" I look at her closed eyes, I scream louder: "HELP!!" I look at her pretty face, I scream louder: "ANYBODY!! AHHHH!!!" I hear footsteps. The rest of the day is a blur. All I remember are the sirens wailing in the distance, and yet, silence is all I hear. The following two days of class meant nothing to me, I was called upon several times and ignored everything the teacher said or asked. My eyes were glued on her empty desk three feet in front of me, wishing I could smell the delicious scent of her hair, like I had done every day previous to this one. I was in love. I was in love with a leukemia victim who has no feelings whatsoever to me. Why? Why am I tortured like this? And why am I so selfish to think of myself right now when she’s the sick one? I should bring her flowers. I should bring her something. I should see her. No. I shouldn’t. I can’t get attached. I can’t get attached. I can’t. I can’t. Damn. I already am, aren’t I? "Mom! I’m going out! I’ll be back late!" I yelled. No response. Figures. I took the roses off my dresser and leaped down the stairs, and opened the door. There she was. Soaked, smiling, her fist in the air ready to knock on the door I just opened. "Ploypailin." I nearly fainted. I dropped the roses, I didn’t even notice. I reached out my empty hand, positioned as if I was holding something, right into her face. "These… These are for you." "Aww.." She laughed and picked the flowers up from the ground. "Thank you!" "Yeah.. Yeah no problem." She smiled again. Then she threw the flowers over her head, pulled my shirt and kissed me, exactly like she had done before. Surprised and confused, I pulled away. "But – but I thought…" "I’m in love with you!" She said, loud enough the neighbors peeked out the window. "I just – I just couldn’t tell you before. I couldn’t stand for you to see me like I am. If the worst happens, I can’t stand you being miserable. But you were right… You were right… and what I’m feeling for you doesn’t deserve to be wasted on a missed opportunity. The truth is, I’ve loved you ever since you spoke to me. I’m sorry I didn’t tell you at the hospital… I’m sorry… I just couldn’t. I couldn’t put you through it, and I shouldn’t put you through it. But I’m in love with you. And I just needed you to know -." I lunged at her and embraced her lips with mine before she could finish talking. Our mouths were glued together as we walked towards my bedroom. Leaving a trail of clothes behind the sounds of our footsteps on the creaking, wooden floor.
The day slowly passed and I found myself on the phone with Peerapong. "I don’t know… I don’t know whether to tell Ploypailin or not." I said. "Why wouldn’t you?" Peerapong said. "She told me about previous experiences when her close friends had come out to her." "And?" "And she said, it made her feel awkward and stuff. And that all she wants is friendship from those guys, and she could never really look at them the same after that. She said they all stopped being friends." "So… So if you tell her… If you tell Ploypailin… You think she won’t be your friend anymore?" I paused. "Yeah. Probably. I mean, when I look at her, I don’t see a friend. I see more than that, a person who I want to spend forever with, and who I want to die with. Don’t you think she might be scared off a bit by me saying that?" "Dude, you’re making me sick with all the mushy-mushy crap. But I don’t know, I mean you’re the one who knows her personally." "Yeah I do. Maybe I shouldn’t know her, maybe it’s best if she was gone." "What do you mean?" "I mean she’s all I want! I rejected two beautiful girls in the last week - while they were talking to me, all I was thinking about was her." "Dude, you know you’re stupid right?" "Shut up, man. Can’t you see that I have no choice? I mean, her friendship means the world to me, but how am I expected to ever fall in love if she’s always on my mind? It’s either win, or survive if I tell her. But if I wait for her to possibly, eventually make a move on me, it’s win or lose." "That’s some deeps*** right there man." "Yeah well, I’m the one who needs to step in it." "So what are you going to do?" "I was hoping you’d tell me." "Why me?" "So if you tell me to tell her then I can blame it on someone when she rejects me." "Heh heh… That’s what friends are for… I guess… Man, just suck it up and tell her, I can’t stand seeing you like this." A few minutes pass as I stare a hole through the setting sun. "Alright, I’ll tell her… Tomorrow, before class. She’s always the first one there." "And you’ll be the second? Wow, new record for you." "Heh." "Man, I’m here for you, alright? No matter what happens tomorrow." "Thanks man." With the knowledge that I have Peerapong as a safety cushion if I fail, I can start tomorrow with so much confidence. I make it through the night, not a second spent with my eyes closed.
Once I approach the classroom I stare at her through the door window, the only barrier between myself and relief, she looks up and waves. "Oh god she’s so beautiful." Did I just say that out loud?! She obviously saw my lips moving because of the curious expression on her face. I slip inside and close the door. I slightly bang my head on the glass and breathe a sigh in hopes to terminate the vast nervousness in my veins from what I am about to do. "Hey you." She speaks with words so soft. Silently approaching her, I take another breath and look into her eyes, standing my ground in between her and her escape. "I…I can’t…" "Can’t what?" She says. "I’m sorry." "Wh – what?" "I’m sorry… If you misinterpreted us… What we have… Our friendship." She looks me in the eye with a curious, confused expression. "I just… I can’t… stop thinking about you. You’re in my mind all day and I love it and I hate it and… and I just… needed you to know, I guess." Something told me the moment was over, but I knew better… Still with a confused expression, she forms her lips in response. "Don’t speak." I said. "Just – I can’t… I can’t do anything! I can’t sleep, I can’t concentrate, I can’t even talk straight… It’s painful, knowing that you don’t know. You’re just this big… thing… growing and growing by day, taking over my mind and I just can’t do anything… about it. I just… I just needed to tell you, so maybe it could… maybe it could stop." It’s amazing, I was never able to look at any girl straight in the eyes for an entire conversation. But emptying my deepest thoughts to her was so much easier as I was drowning myself in her eyes. I looked down, as staring to the ground was a safe haven for me my entire life. But I’m not playing it safe anymore, my father once told me that courage is connected to the eyes, as your eyes fall to the ground, your courage falls with it. Not about to lose my courage, I slowly raise my eyes back to hers. And after noticing her knees frozen solid, I continue: "I look at some other girl, a girl who’s beautiful and - and nice and is everything any guy would be looking for and I don’t feel a thing for her. All I can think about is you. I’m just… in love… with you. And I know you don’t feel the same way but I just… It just needed to get out." After a pause in time she moves toward the exit, but my instinct takes over and I grab her shoulders with my palms. "Wha – What are you doing? Let go, let… Go… LET GO!" She screams with tears as I wrap my arms around her backside and bring my lips to her ear. "Listen to me, please! If you… If you feel about me like I feel about you, you have to let me know! You have to. Because what I’m feeling for you doesn’t deserve to be wasted on a missed opportunity." After ten seconds of silence, she pushes through my heart and goes for the doorknob as my life fills with silence. Silence. Nothing. No more pain… Not now. But she’s still here, I can feel her, but I can’t look back. I’m telling myself I can’t look back. It’s her choice. After seconds that seem like days pass me by, I hear a distant movement. She sprints towards me and turns me around with such ferocity I could never see it coming. Her mouth meets with mine and suddenly I feel the grinding of our teeth in the most sensitive nerves of my body. She grabs my collar and pulls me even closer to the point where I can’t breathe. We finally depart from one another by inches, which seem like miles after that sensational experience. Still speechless, she looks into my eyes and shakes her head, turns, and runs out the door. Any word I could have used to stop her escaped me. I don’t know what that was. I don’t know what to feel. I blink and I find myself outside the class, my legs in full motion in pursuit of the soul I just connected with. By this time the other students are on their way up to the door, with the teacher following close behind them. My body still semi-numb, I clip a student as I leap down the stairs, I hear a crash but I don’t look back. I instinctively mumble half of an apology but there’s no way he heard me. "Ploypailin Ploypailin Ploypailin!!" She goes from a fast walk to a mild sprint, but soon she caves in as I continue yelling her name. I see her standing there, swaying from side to side and stumbling like a drunk. She falls to the ground in slow motion, I reach out but my nails barely graze the tips of her dark brown hair as she hits the pavement. I turn her over and notice her eyes closed, I – I don’t know what to do. What do I do? Tell me. I scream. "HELP!! ME!!" I scream: "SOMEBODY!!" I look at her closed eyes, I scream louder: "HELP!!" I look at her pretty face, I scream louder: "ANYBODY!! AHHHH!!!" I hear footsteps. The rest of the day is a blur. All I remember are the sirens wailing in the distance, and yet, silence is all I hear. The following two days of class meant nothing to me, I was called upon several times and ignored everything the teacher said or asked. My eyes were glued on her empty desk three feet in front of me, wishing I could smell the delicious scent of her hair, like I had done every day previous to this one. I was in love. I was in love with a leukemia victim who has no feelings whatsoever to me. Why? Why am I tortured like this? And why am I so selfish to think of myself right now when she’s the sick one? I should bring her flowers. I should bring her something. I should see her. No. I shouldn’t. I can’t get attached. I can’t get attached. I can’t. I can’t. Damn. I already am, aren’t I? "Mom! I’m going out! I’ll be back late!" I yelled. No response. Figures. I took the roses off my dresser and leaped down the stairs, and opened the door. There she was. Soaked, smiling, her fist in the air ready to knock on the door I just opened. "Ploypailin." I nearly fainted. I dropped the roses, I didn’t even notice. I reached out my empty hand, positioned as if I was holding something, right into her face. "These… These are for you." "Aww.." She laughed and picked the flowers up from the ground. "Thank you!" "Yeah.. Yeah no problem." She smiled again. Then she threw the flowers over her head, pulled my shirt and kissed me, exactly like she had done before. Surprised and confused, I pulled away. "But – but I thought…" "I’m in love with you!" She said, loud enough the neighbors peeked out the window. "I just – I just couldn’t tell you before. I couldn’t stand for you to see me like I am. If the worst happens, I can’t stand you being miserable. But you were right… You were right… and what I’m feeling for you doesn’t deserve to be wasted on a missed opportunity. The truth is, I’ve loved you ever since you spoke to me. I’m sorry I didn’t tell you at the hospital… I’m sorry… I just couldn’t. I couldn’t put you through it, and I shouldn’t put you through it. But I’m in love with you. And I just needed you to know -." I lunged at her and embraced her lips with mine before she could finish talking. Our mouths were glued together as we walked towards my bedroom. Leaving a trail of clothes behind the sounds of our footsteps on the creaking, wooden floor.
วันพฤหัสบดีที่ 6 กันยายน พ.ศ. 2550
Fit opisite Fail
6\9\2007
Today I don't have any money.A few coin that I have in the pocket can pay for the car park near university.In fact my life that a think It is full complete noe is defferent It bacome fail.Many problem is comming like a fly group eat the awful food.
In the morning the true company call me to pay six thousandbath bill for the mobile phone I have use after I drink whiskey every day and come back to my house at mid night four day follow.I found my self out of money and my health is very weak.
It is time to chage the life style?I ask my self.The question is absolutely yes.My friend Aoom invite me after I have finish the English class to meet the adviser teacher proffeser Sunee.Miss Sunee ask me about my life and my plan to registrar next semaster.She tell my I have no choise to study.If I want to graduate from Abac I should study hard No nessesary time spend.Because Human should grow up by the age and the knowledge.If the age is grown but knowledge isn't grown That should change the plan.
I try to be strong and try to study hard for my self and my family.what ever will be.
My love is still stop I can't understand her because we doesn't has time together she is in Chula and I am at Abac.Fluke is the girl I think she is understand me and I think I like her a lot.The think she like most is the light house.I write the poem to give her I have bring some word from william SP.
For swear It sight,My eye I do for I never saw true beauty Till the night I found you like a ship finding a light house in the dark I found you and you lighten my only heart.
Today I don't have any money.A few coin that I have in the pocket can pay for the car park near university.In fact my life that a think It is full complete noe is defferent It bacome fail.Many problem is comming like a fly group eat the awful food.
In the morning the true company call me to pay six thousandbath bill for the mobile phone I have use after I drink whiskey every day and come back to my house at mid night four day follow.I found my self out of money and my health is very weak.
It is time to chage the life style?I ask my self.The question is absolutely yes.My friend Aoom invite me after I have finish the English class to meet the adviser teacher proffeser Sunee.Miss Sunee ask me about my life and my plan to registrar next semaster.She tell my I have no choise to study.If I want to graduate from Abac I should study hard No nessesary time spend.Because Human should grow up by the age and the knowledge.If the age is grown but knowledge isn't grown That should change the plan.
I try to be strong and try to study hard for my self and my family.what ever will be.
My love is still stop I can't understand her because we doesn't has time together she is in Chula and I am at Abac.Fluke is the girl I think she is understand me and I think I like her a lot.The think she like most is the light house.I write the poem to give her I have bring some word from william SP.
For swear It sight,My eye I do for I never saw true beauty Till the night I found you like a ship finding a light house in the dark I found you and you lighten my only heart.
Hope God bless me and her Hope Spirit bring she close to me Hope Our father give mercy to us Hope The great son bring us to love each other. Hope my wish come true.
วันพฤหัสบดีที่ 30 สิงหาคม พ.ศ. 2550
Chill of evening
12\8\2007
In the morning I went to Shiodome city.Shiodome city was the new center of Japan's economic system.This city has surround by the big building and giant ship port.After that I went to Ashakusa temple.The legend tell that this temple is the place that keep meracle stone of the quan im.who is buddist's god.Japanese people has belive the miracle stone come from the sea by the power of quan im god.
The temple is very beautiful by the Japanese achiteche style.There is the big pagoda that can see from far distance.Outside the temple has a lot of gift shop There were sold many thing like Yukata clothes(Japanese summer suit),Sword or Katana and etc.
In the afternoon I had lunch in the famous tempura restaurant.I think the food taste is like nomally japanese food in Thailand.When I finished my lunch I went to The imperial palace.The imperial palace was build in The Shogun period.There was big wall surround the castle.The wall had builded for protect the castle from the enemy.
I had diner with seafood.When I came back to the hotel I got my bag in the room and went to walked in the park near the hotel.I drank some beer and lit some cigarate.Breath the air from the street make me felt chilled.
In the morning I went to Shiodome city.Shiodome city was the new center of Japan's economic system.This city has surround by the big building and giant ship port.After that I went to Ashakusa temple.The legend tell that this temple is the place that keep meracle stone of the quan im.who is buddist's god.Japanese people has belive the miracle stone come from the sea by the power of quan im god.
The temple is very beautiful by the Japanese achiteche style.There is the big pagoda that can see from far distance.Outside the temple has a lot of gift shop There were sold many thing like Yukata clothes(Japanese summer suit),Sword or Katana and etc.
In the afternoon I had lunch in the famous tempura restaurant.I think the food taste is like nomally japanese food in Thailand.When I finished my lunch I went to The imperial palace.The imperial palace was build in The Shogun period.There was big wall surround the castle.The wall had builded for protect the castle from the enemy.
I had diner with seafood.When I came back to the hotel I got my bag in the room and went to walked in the park near the hotel.I drank some beer and lit some cigarate.Breath the air from the street make me felt chilled.
วันจันทร์ที่ 20 สิงหาคม พ.ศ. 2550
Japan Trip
9\8\2007
Bangkok to Narita
I had busy about pack my bag all day and prepared for the big journey trip.In the evening my driver and the officer that follow my father went to my house to take my family to Suwanabum airport in Samutprakarn.There has four people of my family went to this trip ,my father,mother,my younger brother and me.There had seven bag for shopping.
We arrived at Suwanabum airport and met the group of conference.In this trip my father had went to Japan to watch the engineer technology and the city system in Japan to improve it to the Samutprakanr province.But me and my morther went to shopping.
Take about four or five hours I arrived at Narita airport in Japan.The time of Japan is quickly than Thailand about three hours.I had complete slept in the plane and when I arrived The guide weren't stop They bring us to the Hagone.Hagone was nice park and beautiful view It was near mount Fuji.
I had lunch at Archi lake.The food was the seafood fried in the oil.I thinks It was not delecious.when I finished ate.My mother took me to bought some dried food and snak.and then the guide bring us to the shipyard to took the boat and ran along the lake view.The boat was beautiful It look like from fantasy movies.
In the afternoon I went to Wagudani hill.In the top there had the boil fountain.that people put the egg to this water.Japanese believed that if people had eat the egg that cook from this boil water.This egg will make people life longer seven years.(I had ate it four.)
In the evening I stayed at Fujinobo Kaen hotel.I had seafood diner in the hotel restaurant after that I went to drank some beer with my new friend in the hotel's garden the temperature was about 23-24 c'.I slept at 2 o'clock.
10\8\2007
The sleep of the white giant
I woke up at six o'clock.It made me felt sleepy and terible.In the morning I went to mount Fuji.that is the japan Character.If the people thing about Japan The mount Fuji is the big sign of this country.I went to the fifth floors of mount Fuji I can saw It's top.On the top of the mountain there was a little snow because This season was the summer in Japan.After that I went to shopping in the gift shop with my tourist group.
In the afternoon I went to Yogohama city.I saw the road in Japan were alway had straigt way and I think it made the low problem from trafic jam.The Yogohama city was the center of the port and shipyard.There are a lot of factory.but I thin Japan alway care the air because They has a lot of factory but they alway plant the tree.There are not few tree like Thailand but tree they plant are the forest and many.
The group arrived at Minamoto Miroi everyone went to studied the city plan.only me I slept in the bus because I felt very sleepy.
I waked up in the two hours later and I took the shin kunsen or bullet train to went to Shinjoku.I ate shabu-shabu for my dinner.and then I went to bought some shoes.the shoe in Japan is nice and cool.I stayed in sunshine city hotel for this day.The hotel was big and there had many shopping place and pub I think It was like siam square of Thailand.
at night I went to the bar near my hotel and drank some beer.In the bar I got my new friend She was japanese girl.her name was Kuygo.She smoke a lot.I slept at four o'clock.
วันจันทร์ที่ 6 สิงหาคม พ.ศ. 2550
02\08\2008
To day was the brutal day of the week because It was The day that I had three subject for studied.I woke up very late and my fried ,Kook call me and invite me to should not went to studied the first subject science man.
I hate this subject a lot because It was very hard The teacher teach student to wrote prochart.I can not do it in the exam and in the class room.I thinks I will try hard to past this subject.
I came to ABAC to studied second subject.The English 2 I think I should came because This subject If you did not came you will list the point and I did’t want to lost it.I came to studied late because traffic jam.(Terrible problem in Bangkok)
The teacher gave me absent but I hope to studied that I came and sat in the backside of the classroom.
In the afternoon my friend told me that the teacher that teach me in final subject was cancel class.I heard the good news.
My friend invited me to seek the high school girl in Triamudomsuksa Normkroa.I drove my car to that school and I got the girl phone number.her name is A.I think she will the A-plus girl.
03\08\2008
Hello! ! ! ! Holiday.My friend invited me to went too the zoo.
In the morning I drove my car to the correct some problem about my suit because It was too huge.I want it fit my body.I went to the fassion house at Petchburi rd.with my friend dutch and his girl friend Ta,
When I finish I went to Khowdin zoo.this zoo was the classic zoo It was old zoo and It place in the center of Bangkok.In the zoo I saw many animal like elephant, zebra,monkey and etc.I forgot to told I saw dinosaur but It was the statue.
The journey was quiet good but when The rain fall I came back to my house.
It was the goodholiday.That I went with my friend because I usually went to the departmentstore.
To day was the brutal day of the week because It was The day that I had three subject for studied.I woke up very late and my fried ,Kook call me and invite me to should not went to studied the first subject science man.
I hate this subject a lot because It was very hard The teacher teach student to wrote prochart.I can not do it in the exam and in the class room.I thinks I will try hard to past this subject.
I came to ABAC to studied second subject.The English 2 I think I should came because This subject If you did not came you will list the point and I did’t want to lost it.I came to studied late because traffic jam.(Terrible problem in Bangkok)
The teacher gave me absent but I hope to studied that I came and sat in the backside of the classroom.
In the afternoon my friend told me that the teacher that teach me in final subject was cancel class.I heard the good news.
My friend invited me to seek the high school girl in Triamudomsuksa Normkroa.I drove my car to that school and I got the girl phone number.her name is A.I think she will the A-plus girl.
03\08\2008
Hello! ! ! ! Holiday.My friend invited me to went too the zoo.
In the morning I drove my car to the correct some problem about my suit because It was too huge.I want it fit my body.I went to the fassion house at Petchburi rd.with my friend dutch and his girl friend Ta,
When I finish I went to Khowdin zoo.this zoo was the classic zoo It was old zoo and It place in the center of Bangkok.In the zoo I saw many animal like elephant, zebra,monkey and etc.I forgot to told I saw dinosaur but It was the statue.
The journey was quiet good but when The rain fall I came back to my house.
It was the goodholiday.That I went with my friend because I usually went to the departmentstore.
The begining of the journal
31\07\2007
Today was the firstday of my journal that the teacher gave me as homework.For every week the word will not less than 500 words.And this day was not only the first day of my journal but it was the day that my youngerbrother was birth.It was his birthday.
Now my youngerbrother was nine years old.He is younger than me twelve years.Now he studying in Sarasas Wittaya school.I have only one brother.
In the morning I drove my car to dropped my brother at his school and then I drove to ABAC.
To day I had only one subject to studied.It was the main subject that I studied a lot per week.It is English2.Today teacher told student to buy the book.The book name was The American Crime.This book is the shortstory that tell about the crime or someyhing like that.Then teacher gave the journal to sent him on internet.It’s like diary online(I thinks so)
I think the teacher will told the student about the exam score but I think wrong the teacher will told student on next Monday.
When I finish studied I drove my car to the mall to bought cake and some surprise to my brother.I bought chocolate cake that my brother and my mom like.
At night my family joy together and happy with my brother’s birth day.
01\07\2007
Amazing news my mother told me that I should pack my bag we will go to Japan in Next Thursday.I was surprise and happies because I like Japan a lot.My mother took me to cut the suit that I wear in Japan.She had her owndressmaker. To day I had only one subject to study It was the one of subject I like It was World Civilization.I liked the subject that has the story about history or political science.When I was a child I always went to the library to read the history book or some thing about world war.It is my free time book.I think when I was in the junior highschool I wrote every history book in the liabrary.
The World Civilization class was teach in the civilization style many student were very quiet because there were a few student came for today.After that I went to ate lunch with my friend at Fuji restaurant in The mall.I love Eastern Asia food like Japanese food,Chinese food and the spicy That very delicious was Thai food.
Today was the firstday of my journal that the teacher gave me as homework.For every week the word will not less than 500 words.And this day was not only the first day of my journal but it was the day that my youngerbrother was birth.It was his birthday.
Now my youngerbrother was nine years old.He is younger than me twelve years.Now he studying in Sarasas Wittaya school.I have only one brother.
In the morning I drove my car to dropped my brother at his school and then I drove to ABAC.
To day I had only one subject to studied.It was the main subject that I studied a lot per week.It is English2.Today teacher told student to buy the book.The book name was The American Crime.This book is the shortstory that tell about the crime or someyhing like that.Then teacher gave the journal to sent him on internet.It’s like diary online(I thinks so)
I think the teacher will told the student about the exam score but I think wrong the teacher will told student on next Monday.
When I finish studied I drove my car to the mall to bought cake and some surprise to my brother.I bought chocolate cake that my brother and my mom like.
At night my family joy together and happy with my brother’s birth day.
01\07\2007
Amazing news my mother told me that I should pack my bag we will go to Japan in Next Thursday.I was surprise and happies because I like Japan a lot.My mother took me to cut the suit that I wear in Japan.She had her owndressmaker. To day I had only one subject to study It was the one of subject I like It was World Civilization.I liked the subject that has the story about history or political science.When I was a child I always went to the library to read the history book or some thing about world war.It is my free time book.I think when I was in the junior highschool I wrote every history book in the liabrary.
The World Civilization class was teach in the civilization style many student were very quiet because there were a few student came for today.After that I went to ate lunch with my friend at Fuji restaurant in The mall.I love Eastern Asia food like Japanese food,Chinese food and the spicy That very delicious was Thai food.
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